School days

Funnily enough Im looking back to my old school days tonight after reading in our local paper  a man has been arrested for carrying a carving knife and threatening people with it . He apparently has some psychological  problems and has been spared jail as he is vulnerable so it reads . He stated in his defence he suffered from low self esteem . A bad night out and the wrong thing said by a stranger flipped him out resulting in him waving his kitchen knife around . Sounds like a nutter then ? Well he was one of my best friends at school . He was one of my very few friends at school  . He was in the uncool gang !
  Its amazing how long mental  damage done at school by a few idiots lasts ; decades . He is obviously still suffering . My last 5 years has all been about re-living what I though were my inadequacy's by constantly seeking approval in whatever part of my life I though was lacking back then . I am only now beginning to feel some closure here .
 But life does change , and its true ; school bullies do grow up to be losers !  In real life they aren't so big at all , in fact they aren't up to life and you even have to feel a bit sorry for them ....  If bullying was stamped out at school then imagine the future suffering that could be avoided ....

Yet again

Why do I never learn ? If an item is too cheap on ebay , especially car parts it probably means it wont fit . Yet again I have fallen into that trap and now have the inconvenience of returning the said goods . Our local post office is only operating 2 days a week making even posting the parcel back awkward . As Kendal is a forty mile round trip trying to save time using ebay seemed a no brainer but now I shall have to travel there anyway and waste time posting the return sometime that will probably not be convenient at all . I never learn ....