Fearful symmetry

Sat on my sofa .The rain outside is heavy . The sound of rain on a summers night is deeper than in winter . It has its own sound , heavy thundery showers . It feels just like last year at this time and I bet if I look back on my posts this would be proved . The same sequence of events is playing out like a routine  I must go through . I reckonize the people playing their parts . Again soon things will go my way , but what was gained by loosing them for a while ? Why ? Loss and regaining are a pattern . It must be needed in the way life works . Ho;ding your nerve is the answer and that gets harder with time.....