A short while ago a particular part of my life that had ruled me for years came to an end , abruptly . This led me to examine my blogs and whether I could still justify them both as this situation had fuelled the Golden Blog in particular . I decided to shut down Golden and tried to merge its subjects into my Drifting Sideways blog . I had mixed feelings about doing this as I found myself compromising what I wrote to make these posts look less " weird " on Drifting . This was fuelled by a sudden anxiety about how people viewed me . It was a vain and silly phase I was going through then . I was basically selling myself out . Not good . I may also add I was doing some very serious soul searching in a manner Ive never done so before regarding exactly what is worth investing time and energy in !
It wasn't long before I then started to think that the readers of Drifting Sideways may not like this new" weird " flavour ! I quickly decided that I may ruin the whole show , and that the two blogs each done uncorrupted were far stronger . Compromise is never really satisfactory . Esoteric things can not be compromised as they are subjective to begin with which means that if I see saw events that way then they are that way . How would it even be possible to change this ? So back to the old formula I went .... Each to its own . Phew !
I still find plenty to write about on Golden as my views broaden and I seem to be looking at things in a more existential way as I move on from the old times that inspired me . I still fear writing freely on there though , and I may generalise a little to let " myself off the hook " occasionally Its a tricky blog , its a brave blog , its a a blog I cant re-wind . Is it a blog I would want my daughter to find one day ? Well yes , as I see nothing corrupting on there , only an awareness of whats out there , or maybe even just what I perceive to be out there . Is that so dangerous ? The truly worrying subjects are usually very worldly and human . We all have our secrets and im no different . Time to stop digging my hole now ! My chips have burnt while ive been too busy writing again . How many times has that happened ? And yes as I fill the kettle the water pipes have let out a " moaning grind " the likes of which ive never yet heard . Nothing changes eh ?
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