More of the same ?

Seeing the pictures of  napalm type burned children in Syria I wonder just how dropping more bombs on this country is going to help peace ? Just because a situation is unbelievably distressing does not vindicate morally fuelled acts of EXTREME violence .   Hey the biggest irony here is ( and how do they miss it ? ) is that they ( well not this country anyway now ) are aiding once again people of dubious Islamic ideals while blissfully in love with the idea of aiding democracy ! A pipe dream of unbelievable niavity ... just look at Egypt .

Now this says it all......

A sharp suited commentator on Sky News has just spouted that UK house prices are going up by £500 a month . He says this is good news and is some extra money in peoples pockets in these hard times ?  Apparently this is a sign of economic recovery . REALLY ? How does that work then ? This is putting already out of reach houses further out  peoples reach . And the only reason houses are going up is because our government is guaranteeing loans for deposits . This is causing prices to rise artificially , not that anyone cares . The bloody banks must love it !!! First they go bust , then are bailed out , then the government causes house prices increase . And they call this a recovery . F****** hell    !!!!  This sums up the short term head in the sand attitude of our childish " democracy "    .  A family member says we only get the democracy we deserve...

What a strange night

Ive never felt like I do tonight . Its been a long summer . Its now becoming a grimy slow decline into Autumn . Someone said to me summer is on its death bed . Events drift so far and time can trick us into apathy or lifes changing currents . Do I fight the current or as now take advantage of it ? Im no longer sure Im fit for this endeavour though I may have got what is considered by most to be a trivial situation out of proportion . Time is guilty of that and only " suck it and see " seems to give me any guidance or comfort in the view that all is alright . After so long one must make an effort in case one has written off a situation with too much zeal , but im so scared that its already gone to push and find out . I shall do so anyway .....
 Someone wrote tonight that sometimes failure at a situation is not your own fault but others who aren't up to the job of a relationship or friendship . True.

Has Parliment finaly worked ?

Well just as I was about to write a post about how useless our Parliament is nowadays they have actually voted against a military strike on Syria reflecting for once the general publics mood . Take note this is how democracy should work . Off course its the result of petty political point scoring but hey we the people have got the result we all wanted . This feels good .....Well I think this is good , well maybe....

The hardest choice

On returning home I have the chance re-visit a situation that caused me much upheaval . It drifted away but now I think I have the opportunity again . Im really struggling as to whether I should take this chance to re-start this thing or after so much turmoil should I just walk away ? I told you getting what you want is hard .

Scotland 2013

 

 I have just got back from Scotland . Ive missed my blog . Im tired and my head is spinning from the long drive home home .

Luminary - Millennium Episode Profile - Episode and Credits Guide

Luminary - Millennium Episode Profile - Episode and Credits Guide         The best tv series you've never heard off from the maker of The X-Files

Luminary

Well ive decided at the last minute to go on my holiday by myself though I am meeting a relation for three days and after that who knows . Its a location ive been to for many years but always with a lot of family . It will be strange waking up alone there . I need a rest and have that feeling I am going to explode if I don't get away . Ive been getting that closing in feeling when peoples voices start sounding a bit too loud and too close !
 After reading so much about solitude im now to experience it a while . Its all new to me ! Maybe ive been lucky. Tonight I feel like a character in an episode of the 90's crime/ mystical show MILLENNIUM . There is an episode call LUMINARY .    Google it and it will give you a smile !!!

My attempt to find a phone to take with me ... LOL

Well I hope I don't break anything and get stranded in Scotland but giving recent events don't rule it out !!!

Feeling the pinch

All of a sudden the cost of lifes luxury's has gone through the roof ; for example running a car or going on holiday is getting very hard to justify today . When i left school these were not items you grappled with requiring justification  . They were not items that unduly upset your finances . They are now . Running two cars is on the decline for a lot of families . I am still somehow justifying it as ive always been a car type person , but for how long I don't know ...
 Why are petrol and electricity so expensive ?  Well both have seen falls in usage of 30% apparently in the last few years . That's a lot . Were not talking 2 or 3 % here . This proves their expensive cost has dramatically changed consumers habits . So you use your car less . You try and cut back your electricity usage but in response the companies you buy from put up their prices . You cannot win here .
 For once I cannot blame the government .
  Anyway to cut a long story short  im feeling the pinch in areas I once took for granted . Its to be expected but i didn't think multinational companies would be to blame .

Barking up the wrong tree

Its been three days since ive turned on facebook . Its dead on there . I can feel the emotions of the site flowing through me when I log on . Someone once wrote that she moved to a bleak mining town and she could feel the past bleak emotions of the place swamping her . Sometimes I feel the spirit of the site when I log on and its bleak , empty , apathetic , conformist , predictable . My last post was " nothing is real on here " which sums it all up . I have not found the things I was searching for on there because the people I was looking for don't hold fb in high priority . Ive been " barking up the wrong tree " . If I am to see that friend again it will have to be a chance meeting face to face . Maybe that's how life finds its balance ? Facebook violates this natural rhythm ....

Motorway City

http://youtu.be/r6BO8rl307Y     Hawkwind

No this isnt going to turn into a family blog !

In a tired grumpy mood . Ive been woken up every morning for weeks by a demanding little girl wanting to watch Pepper Pig at 6am . I also have a stonking head ache as I do every August and May . Why are my headaches seasonal ?  Come to think of it my mental states are seasonal !!!   Well I am a Son of the Soil ....

And I thought I had water trouble......

I heard today that storage tanks in Japan that contain the  radioactive water from the destroyed  nuclear plant ( that begins with  an F and I'm too tired to find the correct spelling and if I have a stab at it i might accidentally write an expletive ) has leaked 300 tonnes of highly radioactive water today into the ground somewhere . Of course the full moon is to blame . Moon + water =Trouble

On the trail of the lonesome pine.....

Today I heard an already  injured member of my family fell down the stairs today thus removing my chances of going on holiday with anyone ! Well they say a full moon forces a crises . Other family have work , financial reasons why they cant go . Rachel wont take Evie for the 12 hour journey so only my famous Uncle is planning to go up Scotland and he is only stopping half the week . The rest of the week I am on my own or shall come home .
 This is a unique experience as i have never lived completely on my own for days . Like I said it will be interesting to find myself . Maybe this is what I need ? Will I come back changed ? I shall suggest this is fate and is meant to be for a reason . Interesting times......

No ?

So did anyone dismantle and check the operation of their shocks this weekend ? No ? 

In a funny mood . So whats new....

I'm in a funny mood today . The wind is howling round our windows and its sunshine and showers . I find this time of year hard . Im in between mind sets and in between seasons ....
.Eventually when the short winter days begin I  suffer from the dreaded  Seasonal Disorder . This is an extreme transformation for me . Physically im reduced to 50% . My mind slows down . My world narrows . I become constantly tired but these effects are beginning now very , very slowly and will accumulate steadily peaking at Christmas . By then I will be raging inside , foul tempered and of savage mind !!! Socially I wont give a f**** . I have to force myself to buy presents ! It is the most unfortunate time to feel this way as everyone is forcing happiness but Im doomed till the days start to lengthen in March , then its a slow process back " up "  to more energy and spring .This is also an unpleasant process as my mindset then widens to the everyday stuff and the coming future . These two different sides to me are so huge when im in one I doubt the other exists till I feel the seasons change , as today .
  Hey the upside of going " down " is well..... nope ! That's a story for Golden !!!

The Great Asda / Satan

Well its finally happened . A tipping point has been reached . The Great Satan Asda has finally stopped me from purchasing from their store . Today I was faced with 20 new self service machines that I refuse to use and huge queues at the conventional tills so I dumped my stuff and walked out . All this from a store that breaks its own neck to try and be consumer friendly .

What you could be doing this weekend !

http://youtu.be/BiW0ISi8N-w

Soaps

So weary of negative , screaming , shouting , dumb soaps . Who needs this shit after a hard day ?  Don't underestimate just how much I loathe them.

A little reminder

Today I bought some quality metal cutting discs from a reputable hardware store only to find they showered my face in red hot debris when I started cutting . Now sparks are normal and you take care at what angle you cut but I have never experienced this amount of disintegration  . No damage done except a mouth of grit and a cut lip . Luckily I had eye protection on or I could have been blinded . The problem is a modern one CRAP  product ! Cutting ( no pun intended ) corners no less .
  This little incident reminds me that as we get older our luck starts to run out ! When your young nothing much touches you . You drive too fast , you mess about on cliff tops ect and think your invincible . Today I stumble . Today accidents seem to line up and im much more careful . Maybe we have a guardian angel till a certain age and after that we take our chances......

Holiday

It seems a portion of my family will be coming on holiday after all , but only for half of the week . What I,m gonna do with the rest of my time alone I haven't a clue . Ive never spent days alone in my entire life . It shall be an interesting experiment . Wake up alone . Fill in all that time . Go to bed alone . It will be a learning curve . I shall see things differently when I return home Im sure .
 Other holidays have changed me in the past , in a good and sometimes bad way ! I think this is another event I must go through . Ive always wanted the chance to see how it feels to holiday on my own . I seem to get what I desire very quickly nowadays . If I want it its never far away . If I think it somebody will bring it into my sphere . Im starting to notice this.....

Willy Wonka - Philosopher

" Never ever rule out what can not be proved ! "      Sometimes you find wisdom in a childs story.....

Why I hate adverts again

http://youtu.be/JV1436VsnZY            An advertisement firm takes this  scene from a great film  and turns it into......



!http://youtu.be/Vx0m8Np2aTM    THIS  !!!!!      I rest my case .  Copying a films visual style for an advert  is weak and lazy , and I bet they charge a fortune.....

Peppa Pig - Philosopher

" Before one can jump in the puddle one must first become at one with the puddle ! "   So said Daddy pig on the Nickjunior  tv channel . Well they start them young nowadays.....

Advertising , more than meets the eye

Who are the tv adverts aimed at ? One thing is for sure , they are made to connect with the average person or else they are futile ! You know your not average when you just cringe and cant relate to what their getting at . They grate against your  mind set or infuriate . And they are relentless .
  On the other far end of the scale particularly insulting are cosmetic adverts or weirdly perfume or designer aftershave ones . They try to appeal to the part of us that's drawn to archetypes using images of beauty , the sea , gold ect. The ordinary person is drawn in subconsciously but I feel like a fish that feels the hook in the bait .....

Talk Radio

Unbelievably we have no longer have a  full time " talk radio " station in this country . And this is a reflection of Britain when I tell you  we did but about 3 years ago it a converted to a 24hour sports talk format . Not my definition of a phone in .
 The original general phone in format was so fresh and new . The presenters were very good and the later the shows the better they got . The media couldn't handle the general public or everyday man having his say and were very critical and sarcastic at the time . The station changed hands , advertising revenue was increased as sports were deemed more rating friendly . Out went interesting , fresh and a bit dangerous ; in came mainstream , conventional and predictable . And that was the end of it . Other stations have phone ins but only of a nominal ( my favourite word ! it should be used more ! ) kind .
 I see on TV the American scene is on a different planet ! Religious stations and extreme views and presenters seem to provide a heady mix . How envious am I ? I loved my station and used to listen every night and sometimes in the dark years till the early hours . I miss it ....

Call this what you will

Its an overcast cool day . Very mundane . Ive hovered my car out and I should mow the lawn . Im tired from a busy week . Feeling quite melancholy as summer is starting its decline . The hills have lost their fresh look and are taking on a dirty brown hue . The trees are looking warn , their leaves looking a grubby green . I have the house to myself this afternoon and Smokey and the Bandit is on TV yet again . Why is this film not as funny as you remember ? Not many things in life are still as good as you remember !
 Looking back I would never have imagined myself writing a blog . In fact ive only been on facebook 18 months . Fb has been a mixed blessing . Its kept me in touch with people sometimes but when they don't make the effort because of whatever circumstances I can get a little wound up . Mis-understandins are so easy to create . I guess I expect perfection . Its not impossible to imagine a social nirvana if everyone was consist ant but were all different , irrational and unpredictable . To be honest im not cut out for it , but it continues to seduce me . Once you've had a taste its nearly impossible to turn your back on .
 This blog is more my out spoken side . If something I see annoys me I spout it out on here with gusto . I don't look to be controversial but I never tow the line for nicety's sake . I do however explain subtle deviance's from what you might at first glance believe is a crass statement . Yeah fast and loose with a touch of empathy and a big dose of bluster !
 This summer im looking for closure on a period of my life . Not the end of it but a new balance allowing me the damned luxury others have of feeling normal .Ive been guilty of putting all my eggs in one basket for nearly four years , which is fine till you loose said basket ! The blog scene has helped me here far more than facebook as I see others struggle too . Also unlike facebook people do listen , even if they are elsewhere in the world . I need to look after me a bit more and enjoy what I have and any extras are a luxury .

Quite happy for the moment anyway

Feeling quite chipper at the moment . The last sheep has been sheared on the farm . The heat wave has passed and there is a cool touch in the air and the weather is still dry . The skies are pale blue and the clouds light . This is typical August . The count down to autumn has begun . Im already looking forward to this as its my time of year . I thrive on winter and can work with it . Its a more controlled time . Oh and my traditional Scotland fishing holiday is not far off . Cooking my catch at the end of a day in a caravan that's shaking in a storm makes me feel alive !!!

A conudrum ?

As you get older you try to suss more things out in your life . In so doing this you also follow more
" red herrings ! "    There again " sometimes if it quacks is really is a duck ! "

The summer gather for shearing

Love is the devils toy ?

http://youtu.be/d5W2PX23xzE    The Almighty         I listened to this song back in the day to destruction of several tapes !

A true rant

I loath spokesmen for  any charity or pressure groups . They are ALL one trick ponies . They all stick to their mantra . They have no sense of relativity , proportion or adjustment for varying facts . They only have the " party " line. Every incident is taken to the extreme . They feather their own nests while the heads of the organisations are on 100K  . Vermin.

Tone it down !

Every morning I watch BBC BREAKFAST .  I have done this for about 20 years . Mostly because my parents watch it and I work on our farm and come up for my breakfast every morning . Whats annoying me is , and this applies to other presenters on tv shows too ; shouting ! Presenters now talk in a tone that has gone up to an alarming level . Gone is the relaxed quietly spoken presenter . Now they are speaking as though they are scared stiff you aint listening to them . Their voices are strained . You cant concentrate or read with the tv on in the back ground anymore . The vocal tones are designed to allow you no respite as long they talk . I guess its a natural progression and looking back to tv presenters in black and white days you just laugh at how odd they sound now . Anyway Im finding it increasingly irritating , even stressful . Another sign of the times....

A view for the few

I have never got worked up about race . That looks awful in print . This is because I believe people are quite capable of making their own minds up based on their perceptions and experiences . To tell someone that their judgement based on their experiences is wrong to me is even more offencive !!! No one has THAT right however much another persons view point offends some .People are not stupid but....
  Races look after their own fact . Its not nice but its a natural survival mechanism . Political correctness has gagged any discussion of this fact in the U.K .   When battle lines are drawn everyone resorts to type . It happens over here as it does in America . As for one race been worse than another I have NO experience at all due to where I live  on this subject !!!!  . Though I now remember a year ago the body of a Pakistani girl was found in the river of our nearest town , the victim of a  " honour killing " . Her father suffocated her with a plastic bag because of her refusal of an arranged marriage ! This is not uncommon in that race unfortunately so people not surprisingly get a little annoyed  after a while . If a race is a repeat offender for atrocities like this is it no wonder peoples views are " racist "  . Is this wrong ?
 And what about statistics ? In London i think it was 90% of recorded muggers were black . Is that racist ? If a race has a particular undesirable element prevalent then they are gonna be judge as a whole . . People are all human . Being human can be ugly .....

God its wet !!!

Its a day of torrential rain . Three inches are forecast today .   A landslide occurred on Rise Hill last time it rained this hard a fortnight ago and seeing as the river is brim full now and the torrential rain is even heavier this afternoon  Dent will be cut off  by floods for sure later on  .Its too wet today to do anything at all  on the farm so ive been to pick up my broken laptop from the menders . That's the second screen ive had in as  many months .
 Its been a strange 24 hours . A blocked once friend is sniffing around on line . Mmmmm  ? A visiter stopping over the weekend changed the mood for the better ! A change of atomosphere can be nice .
Tomorrow im up at 4.30am to gather sheep off the fell for shearing . I will probably get the quad bike bogged as the fell will be one big bog tomorrow   . I shall try to take my camera again and who knows if I shall capture any orbs this time ?   Or rain drops as some people suggested !!

Sorry landslide is a bit hard to see with my limited zoom . Its smack in the middle of the picture at the top of the hill .

Hawkwind - Shot down In the Night

  The louder you turn it up the better it sounds . A cliché but its true . For big coloured plastic sunglass waring  skinny jean types this is what I call music.....

Holier than thou ?

Everyone pushes their own view point hard . All races push their own view point hard . All religions push their view points hard . They dont fuck around or suffer criticism lightly . So in this aggressive climate why do they whine and moan they are victimised ? Point scoring and furthering the strength of the viewpoint they represent will mean conflict or anti type views . Dont moan about it . We are all fair targets when it comes to our beliefs !!! If you dont wanna loose , dont play the game ! The post below is purely coincedental .

GOD - My pal (1988)

Blah , blah , blah

Feeling a mixture of tension / boredom and despondency  . Summer is rolling out its last month and i cant wait to get up Scotland for my holiday sea fishing . All i wanna do is blog at the moment . Sounds sad but thats the truth . Quite happy on here at the moment . Facebook is just pissing me off like it did last year . Its only as good as its users though  !

So dizzy

Feeling odd today . Ive had hayfever all summer . There is so much pollen in the air my skin feels thick with it .Mt sinuses are very bad and I feel so dizzy I could really loose my balance . I feel like im on a ship at sea ! Its been a hot summer after last years disastrously wet one . Its so much easier getting work done on the farm when you know its gonna be dry . This is unusual for Britain . Its so humid as well . Constantly sweating all day and night . Thats tiring or maybe Im getting a bit dehydrated .

Drifting sideways: Bloggers nightmare ?

Drifting sideways: Bloggers nightmare ?: " Captain Mackenzie had suggested a contraceptive on a fountain pen as a suitable remedy . That way they could scribble away all day an...