Ooooooooooooooooooh !!!

Today i had the house to my self for an hour . I opened the windows to let the too hot air out ,whacked up my hifi volume and started reading a rather deep book . Heavan .Oh yeah and i bought a Meriva !!!!!

Evie , of course you are

Things are going well with Evie . I think she has know twigged on who i am and i can settle her down at night n ow . Everything seems amazingly ordinary but also deeply but subtley different if that makes sense . A week ago seems like a life time ago now . I still feel the same in fact this experience has made my character a stronger version of who i was . If i want something i dont mess about i just do it after all life is no good if your too causes!   How i ever thought i would loose the parts important too to me of my life i dont know .If anything they have got better . Sorry if you caught the thick end of it !!!  I had no way of  knowing this before unfortunately.

Whaaaaaaaaaaa !

Oh dear im tired already after one night . Apparently if a baby stops screaming at 2 oclock in the morning youve had a " good " nights sleep ! Wondering just what ive let myself in for . Not a laughing matter at all . This is a massive shock to my system . I miss my quite house already and been able to just sit down and watch a film . Not funny.......
  On a better note facebook has got into gear for me . I knew i was missing something......   Its complicated with so many " walls " to understand and things i dont understand ! So be patient !!!!  :  )

Its the little things

What a performance !  Out  the whole experience the hardest parts were getting a cash card that worked , getting change too park then i only brought half a child seat to collect Evie ! There were loud words and shouting  in the car hospital car park .
 Having reached Kendal hospital last night i noticed acutely the difference in atmosphere between the two towns . Lancaster was electric , dry ,windy , charged . Kendal was damp and so empty , deserted , apathetic and dead . All energy had gone . A town far to smug and comfortable with its self like but that has not yet realised its lost its spark.... No i havent changed that much have i ?

Odd night alright

Well Evie ( have i spelt that right ? )  is out in the world thank goodness at last and all has gone very well . She has my hands anyway and who knows what else . It was a interesting night as i learnt a lot about being pushed and how to manage things and handle myself . But not in the way you'd expect ......
  Had a kfc by the canal ( where else eh ? )   An odd night with echoes beyond belief.... but what did i expect !

Is that a photo of Tallow on facebook ? LOL

Feeling very nervous as the time is near . Cant be bothered with facebook at the moment or till after the birth . Youll learn a lot more here believe me . Im more positive than i was about the whole situation now as the weekend smoothed a few things out in a funny sort of fashion .
  The mist has totaly covered everything in the dale and its murky as hell and warm too . Going to watch the rest of Blazing Saddles tonight or some random horror film and try to switch off a bit but at any moment i maybe running for Lancaster and finaly it will be.

Ita a bit late know......

If you replied to " my friends request " on fb thinking it was me i apologise , i really do . Not that i wouldn't have anybody on it that isn't on it now , but some of you i would have enjoyed asking myself . It would have been a pleasure ! Anyway that's water under the bridge .....
 Im watching the film Blazing Saddles at the moment . What a  unpoliticaly correct film but very funny , even childish but its all the better for it .
 Very soon the baby will be here and i want to say a special thanks to the person i told first for their support and everything . Youre a star !
 

Military wifes ( not fit for fb post ! ) (or is it )

If Military Wifes win the Brits i shall scream blue murder . Wrong on so many levels . Im not anti-army as such its that i cant marry their sentimental  singing to the reality of war . A sickly , repulsive mixture that makes my stomach turn !!!

Still here !

2 blogs , 1 facebook and an ebay account. Where will i find the time ?

Young weather women are again clammering to be associated with the coming mild weather . So strong is this instinct that they even use the phrase " No heatwave " in frosty weather . They are at that brief stage in their prime when they want too impress the big bad world .

 No BBC weather woman has a bad ass . I think a good bum must be part of the job description ! If it isnt it should be ! Sometimes i havent a clue what the forecast was .

My best stuff will continue on my blogs not on fb . Feels very safe on here compared to fb .

WOW !

What a bizarre weekend ! At every turn when i least expected it a new surprise awaited me . This continued all weekend . Somehow ive ended having a face book page made up for me complete with friends ( without my consent!!!!! ) and will be having a child all in one week !!!! All  the things i said id never do ! Anyway any comments with any depth will remain on my blogs .This is my true home . Fb is for trivial comments and keeping in touch with people .I hope it doesnt lead to hassle !I am not of the social networking generation.....   As  J C once said  " One must carefully consider all the implications of an action  "  I shall bear this in mind....

Quote of the week ( the only laugh ive had this week... )

" OUR BANDS DRUMMER HAS BEEN GROUNDED FOR ASSISTING IN A BURGLARY !  "


Rock and roll man.......  "

Join the show

Welcome to the show ! Watch a man cornered at last . You will hear the truth from my view point here . Will it all work out , maybe, maybe not . It will make or destroy me and no in between ! Should i be putting this on a blog ? Probably not but it beats the total exposure of face book . Besides if i dont i may well go mad ..Cant say anyone else isnt stressed at the moment , theres a lot going on for us all . I can hear the empty sighs from here ....
  And most importantly if you do understand me then im  lost for words   :  )    Ive just be told to " relax " ! Errr thats OK then im fine now......

Fuck knows.....

Its be coming increasingly apparent I'm nearly totally isolated at the moment in my feelings . I confided in a friend and she couldn't get out of our house fast enough ! People in general don't really understand my outlook . They never will . Its always been this way since my school days . Im thrust once again into the next " inititation " of life like everyone else only i never wanted to be on this path so am here by default . Why do people find this so hard to understand  ?

Its not you , its me !!!

You will have seen how i bang on about how unsustainable mortgages are and how social housing is the answer many times . Today a our local Conservative councillor   Kevin Lancaster called at the farm canvasing for the local elections .So i asked him why the Conservatives were wanting to sell off Council houses as i thought they were the answer to this country's economic mess ( cheap rent ) His reply knocked me for six.....
   Most council houses built after the war still have mortgage's on them today  because the Government hasn't spent the rent money on paying them off . They have spent it on improving the houses or just other government spending in general  . And it gets worse because this debt is spread country wide amongst our local councils . Who knows how much is still owed . No wonder they want to sell them off .
  So social housing is bogged in an unknown debt disaster ; far worse than a private mortgage ! My social housing house may never be paid off ...... SORRY   How quickly things change....

Today oh joy !

Today i feel like shit in every aspect . Physical and mental .I could do one and go to Boscastle .Really . If you dont like it then....... ************

Overinflated ?

The definition of lower inflation isn't the price of things we buy falling , it is when the rate of them going up slows slightly .

Happy Valentines day everyone !!!

Oh its that time again !    :  )

Makes me smile

http://youtu.be/aUyFZ0nL4TY

My kinda girl ! LOL

A murky weekend

It was a weary dull ,misty ,murky depressing night last night and oh so still in Kendal . I got a few things sorted out though . Today ive waxed my car properly and it will know last till Summer when i hope i will have the energy to do it again ? Everyone seems to be going away or doing stuff this half-term , especially in our family .
 I m just waiting for the baby to arrive in a sudden frenzy of activity and all the wondering will be quickly over, and exploring  the new ground will be scary enough to keep me busy for a while anyway.
  Valentines day will be with us soon and how different things are this year !!!!  In all ways not just good or bad but all round moved on and upwards , in fact its all good i think....... In a funny mood . Its that time of year and change is in the air . Maybe i see  " through a glass darkly " but that's my problem .......
  Ive got a feeling theres gonna be a lot of rambling this week on here so you have been warned . The nights are pulling out again though all looks wintry still and a false impression of Spring is in the air . It has a special name this week in February as its known to be spring like often now for a short burst of a week only . I am going to look up the name this year .
  I will have the house to myself for a few nights this week and will be pleased of a bit of time to think on my own and maybe get my head a bit straighter . Still this week will bring me smiles sure enough as it will some of you ! My second major up heaval is ahead now .If it works out as good as the last i'll be laughing .Only time will tell and that comes in fits and starts making in hard to judge anything easily for quite a while . Only when an event has been sorted satisfactorily can a true perception be gained .
  I would love to walk for a few days round Tintagel cliffs now and look at how things developed after that turbulent holiday cos Boscastle is still giving up its secrets today without me even setting foot there . Its in my physce and soul

David does houses

The government wants to make work pay . O.K this will require cheap rent . Nationalize houses and rent them out cheaper . Take the money out of houses and the banks and we would all be happier instead of chasing that ridiculas dream of making " money " out of a house ! Of course they have it rigged against you . What did you expect . Interest only , fixed rate all tricks to edge you closer to their slavery

Hey Asda - I aint gonna be your bitch 2

In have returned from Kendal with some mackeral from the great satan Asda and its rotten .What a surprise !!! Bloody food gangsters .Barely legal . Im getting a little fed up of their gangsta shit !

Ice , ice baby !

What a bloody night . All is hanging in frozen ice and the freezing rain is miserable . Its so slippy in the yard my dog is having trouble walking ! Conditions are dire .
  Ive been limited to 2 face book postings a week apparently !!! Such is my new found popularity ! Or unpopularity ( is there such a word ?)
 Time is running out for my old life quick, but I will try and be out and about this weekend hopefuly !! Ive been told i wont change too much because  of my character ; i really hope your thats so..... The storm is gathering so you know whats coming .It will pass and I,ll be looking forward again to all im sure thats too come.....  :  ))

The Bishop .....LOL

" Bishop Beesly the Mars Bar messiah , the Smartie saviour.... "       The Condition of Musak   J.C

Kill Kendals otters !

Im sick of otters , i really am . The decent sized fish have disapeared from our rivers in the recent years making it nearly impossible to enjoy the fishing days i used to have . Sea-trout have nearly totaly gone and Salmon are rare but guess what some idiot has re-introduced a species which live mainly on fish ! What bloody timing . And they have spread all over England now ruining rivers everywhere . Shoot them , trap them or dump them all in the sea where they belong.....

One for the die-hard follower

I think Ive solved a ten year mystery of why our focuses air con both stick on and the engine fans whir all the time . The Dial which sends air to clear the windscreen also automatically turns the air con and the engine fan to assist De-misting when turned on to the setting sending all the air to the windscreen . I have it permanently in this position ,so hopefully this ten year annoyance can be now avoided by selecting a notch down from full on . Mmmmm i hope this works . Still with me ?

So true

" The world is full of small men who measure things.... "

Women / cars / facebook.....

Ive had a good afternoon simply washing and cleaning my blue focus while its not freezing or raining ! Fixed a rattly ( wake up female readers ! ) exhaust shield too . My red focus is on " Kendal Sell and Seek "  How long after putting it on did a relation send a message ? 5 minutes ! Women , they miss nothing on line !!!

Keen as mustard !

Why have Colman's ruined their mustard ? The new squeezey  easy tube sprays the new vinegary tasting shite style mustard  out in an out of control explosion meaning you get even more of the  rubbishly stuff than you could ever want in your sandwhich . It comes in a shite American looking plastic bottle that would look more at home in a dinner ! The best mustard comes in the old style glass jar and i spread it with a knife . It has a bull on the front . Its called English mustard . You put it on beef . Its the archetypal spread for generations so dont mess it up Colman's !!!!

Honest Jhon/ David

A family member had a minor bump in their car . Now the insurance company's wont co-operate with each other leading to threatening letters about court proceedings and damages been sent to either party . I thought this was what insurance company's were there for , to sort out this situation ? You pay your huge fee and guess what they fanny about not doing their job . Next you wont be insured despite paying for it . This is the lowest point and things cant get anymore wrong with car insurance . This is the second time i know of this happening . No doubt it will be sorted at the last moment but what a farce.....

Man stuff thats on my mind

1) Why is Sedbergh Chinese shut for the hungry month of February  ?.Damn Chinese holidays .
2) Watched River Monsters on TV last night . Fresh water Sawfish really do exist !!!! Wow
3) Ebay . Money made on selling car parts .Sweet.
4) Laura Tobins ass ! I cant concetrate on the weather map .
5)Blondes  make David happy .....again !!!!