Fuck knows.....

Its be coming increasingly apparent I'm nearly totally isolated at the moment in my feelings . I confided in a friend and she couldn't get out of our house fast enough ! People in general don't really understand my outlook . They never will . Its always been this way since my school days . Im thrust once again into the next " inititation " of life like everyone else only i never wanted to be on this path so am here by default . Why do people find this so hard to understand  ?