Its an overcast cool day . Very mundane . Ive hovered my car out and I should mow the lawn . Im tired from a busy week . Feeling quite melancholy as summer is starting its decline . The hills have lost their fresh look and are taking on a dirty brown hue . The trees are looking warn , their leaves looking a grubby green . I have the house to myself this afternoon and Smokey and the Bandit is on TV yet again . Why is this film not as funny as you remember ? Not many things in life are still as good as you remember !
Looking back I would never have imagined myself writing a blog . In fact ive only been on facebook 18 months . Fb has been a mixed blessing . Its kept me in touch with people sometimes but when they don't make the effort because of whatever circumstances I can get a little wound up . Mis-understandins are so easy to create . I guess I expect perfection . Its not impossible to imagine a social nirvana if everyone was consist ant but were all different , irrational and unpredictable . To be honest im not cut out for it , but it continues to seduce me . Once you've had a taste its nearly impossible to turn your back on .
This blog is more my out spoken side . If something I see annoys me I spout it out on here with gusto . I don't look to be controversial but I never tow the line for nicety's sake . I do however explain subtle deviance's from what you might at first glance believe is a crass statement . Yeah fast and loose with a touch of empathy and a big dose of bluster !
This summer im looking for closure on a period of my life . Not the end of it but a new balance allowing me the damned luxury others have of feeling normal .Ive been guilty of putting all my eggs in one basket for nearly four years , which is fine till you loose said basket ! The blog scene has helped me here far more than facebook as I see others struggle too . Also unlike facebook people do listen , even if they are elsewhere in the world . I need to look after me a bit more and enjoy what I have and any extras are a luxury .
Yeah, me too. I expect perfection from other people, and that's probably not realistic. But it's just how I am.
ReplyDeleteInteresting people are often erratic and unpredictable . To rely too much on others leaves me exposed ! Ive dug myself hole. That's got to change...
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