Absolutes are never possible for long , a middle way must come....

Three - The Pony Dance !

   

This makes me want to visit Tintagel in Cornwall .....

The Kick Ass Rock Crushing Family !

One or the other....

Visit a town and your under a microscope , visit a city and your invisible.....

1 , 2 , 3

Great day today ! Damaged car tyre , punctured pram tyre ( contains baby milk ! ) and a washing machine full of clothes that now contain sewing needles as someone placed a tub of them in there at some time it would seem . Little hands to blame there I guess....

The changing of the guard keeps your feet on the ground

I can hear the wind roaring outside this morning and that's a definite winter sound . Its funny how a winter wind sounds different to a summer one . The same goes for rain too . The sound of  warm summer rain is so much less harsh than cold winter rain .
   Such a subtle difference is also a good example of how I feel times have changed recently in my life and those of my friends or family . Some things wrong , very wrong taking huge portions of old lives away in a brazen and dramatic manner . Somehow this force is as subtle as the sound of different seasons rain falling . Its also hard to fight as I cant pin point its source . These are shocking times . You never see it coming today , no one else did either it seems.....

Expose

Facebook is a funny thing . People who really want to rattle you cant help but expose themselves when they post their status . The fact they do this after an event only goes to show how irrelevant their little forays have been ....

A true archetype ?

While were on the subject of Archetypes , the T.V news announced the death of  ,  and I quote " the archetypal 70's TV actor Lewis Collins " . He was best known for playing " Bodie " a character in the hit 70's crime drama , The Professionals .It was a drama about the MI5 intelligence agency . Why was his character an archetype that represented the 70's then ? Well he was portrayed going to the pub while at work , chatting up all the women he came across , sometimes slapping them on the arse ( sexual harassment being the modern equivalent ) and both he and his partner slid around sideways a lot of the time in sporty Fords whenever the story could justify it ( That was a lot of the time then ) . Oh and they had big guns when appropriate ... Well O.K those must have been the key pursuits aimed at  in a 70's TV program !!! I cant see another drama today being as brash as this one . I love it and have only just watched it for the first time this last year .Of course the story lines were good quality as many were based on true stories from the real MI6 intelligence agency , though some details were apparently changed , obviously . Some of the plot lines do ring very true somehow . A different kind of archetype then !  

Charlize Theron Dior J'Adore Perfume TV Commercial

 

This blog welcomes Archetypes ....

I want to belive ? !

" Believe in the Magic and Sparkle of M&S "      A very interesting advertising slogan asking you to believe in something that isn't suppose to exist , but at the same time encourages you to throw in the towel and surrender too to the romance of the idea . ( And where have I heard that idea before eh ? ) Classic .

Getting very annoyed now at blogger.com / blospot !!!

Blogger.com has gone mad . One minute im following several blogs , the next minute it says I'm following none . This site is in chaos . I cant trust what it tells me this week . Lets hope it explains some weird happenings of recent time . This is getting ridiculous....

The Jester

Today I witnessed a jester . Well a man who is the equivalent of a jester in an organisation . Maybe in a past life he even was one . Anyway the point of a jester is I think to provide an example of what level of behaviour we are acceptably allowed to slide to . A jester puts us at ease by diverting public gaze from our lives folly's . They also remind us of how quickly we could become just like them . They are mocked but they form an important service . They are our wake up call after all ....

Captain Kronos: Vampire Hunter 1974 Trailer

Vampirestats V Captain Cronos ?

Finished watching Captain Cronos Vampire Hunter tonight . A hammer film that's somehow fresh and different as the hero is a crack swordsman who fashions a sword from a huge crucifix . Nice . The irony however is not lost on me as since I closed down Golden this blog is besieged by Vampirestats . com viewings ! Life can be funny like that....just who are all these people and how have they got my blog ? Why do their viewings appear for a brief time at random ? Very vampire like and mysterious too . The name certainly reflects the nature .

Roll deep....

" My heart is broken , but my MIND is moving... "   F***k  that's a good line !!!

Sorry but....

Today ive come to a tough decision , I have decided to give my Golden Blog a break for a while . Things on there are getting to personal to post . A lot of that material is in the past now anyway . I shall return to it next year , maybe . The main reason is that my seasonal disorder is really bad at the moment and im tired all the time , my judgement gets hazy too . Ive had a rough time recently and several things have come to a head in the last few weeks . Like a ship heading over rough passages I am shedding some weight over board . Its as simple as that . It feels the right thing to do . Of course this blog may change slightly in flavour too , but in ways im not yet sure of . I also am hoping for a return to other blogs that  I enjoyed reading but also have been sidelined  by their writer . I guess we all have our reasons for taking our blogs out of public viewing . Here's hoping they return , heres hoping absent followers return !  Nothing is ever simple on line...neither is real life  any more so !

???

Its the eternal mystery ; just where do I leave all my gloves ?

Veterans

For quite a while now Ive noticed something very disturbing about veteran entertainers . As they reach older age their facial expressions become leathered and distant . The eyes become dead and positively glazed  ,  though their vocals over compensate for this as connecting with their audiences attention span is still hard wired into their priority's even after several decades . They can never turn off the " act " , but the act is slowly leaving them , bit by bit . What's left is a manikin  of sorts that makes all the right noises but is so scary because of the unbalance in what's left . Surely something one day must give ? This is what I expect terrifies them , to loose that charisma . So its held onto long after other things have left ; vitality , sparkle or humour . Its the combination of what remains to the end that's so disturbing . To see it in a package of physical decay and old age seems to me so nightmarish ...

David Lynch & Lykke Li - I'm Waiting Here

 

Yes , driving in the middle of the road is officially very cool....

White Zombie - Blood, Milk and Sky

   

The guy at 3:00 has it sussed all right !  He really has....

" Corruption in the Pakistani community is reaching endemic proportions "

A racist blogger ? Er...no , this quote forms a front page headline in The Telegraph today and was a quote from our Attorney General QC  Grieves . Wow lets back up and take a second to realise how unprecedented this is . A top government minister openly criticising a race in general . Its about time too . If a race is continually slated for bad characteristics , then maybe peoples views may actually hold water as they say . Up until know a silly defend  the non white person to the end was the order of the day . At last the gloves are off and it looks like in the future we shall all be treated equally . Hoooorah !!!

Not much I can say other than this

This morning I seem to have lost a watcher for what ever reason . I hope their back soon as ive conversed with them most days over the last few months . We shall see . Hope I haven't said anything to offend . Joking apart  I really mean that . Is nothing simple any more ?

Zombie's

Due to the recession ( officially its stagnation ) I'm told we have nearly 200,000 " zombie business's " in this country . These are business's that are functioning and employing people , but due to their hidden terrible debts have no long term future , but on they plod . Some financial experts say that their debts should be called in and the company's  disbanded so as to not hold back other good business's , apparently . This got me thinking , how many " zombie " friendships do we have ? Some friendships fade but we keep , or try to keep ( guilty as charged ! ) them going , and we might even succeed . This however may seem like  a good thing at the time, but unless there is decent outlook for them its all a waste of time and maybe our energy would be better off diverted to other paths or interests . Its all to easy to let those zombies live on , if only for comfort and conformation that more glorious / exciting times did once exist .

Techno , techno , techno ?

Ive never been a " tech head " , in fact ive only just discovered the meaning or the benefits of blue tooth ! As my lap top is having issues with its speakers being permanently stuck on low volume a friend suggested a wireless speaker as a solution . He showed me one not much larger than an egg cup , and I was amazed at the quality of sound it gave for its size . Things really have come a long way these last few years . He then went on to show me some short animated video's his daughter had put to music . She had used her phone to do this . Again I was quite shocked and yes I felt a little intimidated by technology .
  A second purchase I need to make is a new digital camera as my old one broke ( well the less said about that the better ) when it would no longer zoom in or out without eating batteries . A little " persuasion " saw it disintegrate ! My laptop got a little " persuasion " a while ago too , but that's been fixed at my expense . Anyway im off to " why do you want to do that / comeback in 2 hours "  Kendal . Actually im going to get these items from Asda as there is none of that crappy attitude there , rightly or wrongly .

UP DATE : Yes its been one of those days . The speaker doesnt work any louder and the camera is worse than my old one by far , so im going to mend the old one with some duck tape to hold on the battery cover . Yes its come to that . Getting a refund tomorrow and shall spend the money on something sensible like food I can eat . No im not a techy person at all . It just gets me mad !!

Very , very foolish words my friend

" Nothings real but love , nothings real but love.... "    So shouts / sings the latest female  performer  on my TV . A very dangerous and indefinable statement to make .....

The Offspring - Pay the Man (Lyrics)

 

I used to really like The Offspring before they turned into a trendy youth rock band for skateboarding types !  Maybe they had to re-invent themselves for the market place , maybe I just got older . Either explanation is depressing....

I used to know someone like this....

Its funny how people who use drugs always seem to think they can come up with justifications for their use . Number one excuse is " its only weed " followed by number two " I understand what im doing " or I can stop anytime I want "  . All these excuses are true often , but what they cant see for themselves is the way their character fades , the lack of attention during a conversation or lack of vitality and enthusiasm . Their spirit starts to fade . We can see this and its not nice to watch . We loose the essence of the person . They are so far out of tune with themselves they haven't a clue . Sad . The younger the person the more dismal this is . The worst thing is we are powerless .

Simon Iff / Desert justice

  " Let me know the jackal that did this ! " cried Muley  . The Sheikh was as indifferent as before ."All things are known to Allah , the All- Knower " was his comment , which is Arabic for " I don't know and I don't care "

A Sunday afternoon walk !

I went for a walk yesterday . That's never a good sign ...

Only a Sister

It takes a Sister to publicly and emotionally disembowel you on face book . Cheers !   Its strange how they never message you privately with advice , even if what they say is right . Posting it on my comments is not the place for it . This kind of shock is the exact reason I blocked her until recently . That's nothing personal , its just that Sisters can really " kick you in the nuts " with acute precision  ( mentally speaking of course ) unlike others you know . Apparently I also am a " scary  blogger " too , that made me smile....
   Yes my blogs aren't normal , but what Ive been through isn't normal . OK sometimes my judgement isn't the best and pointing this out is an act of kindness , but how its done is critical . And as for the scary blogging , if I hadn't found the mystical side to life I shudder to think what would have happened to me ...
    No face book is not the place to do your dirty laundry . Sometimes it is tool that gets used by necessity to do the wrong job . Sometimes I may get lucky , sometimes I may look an ass .  There is no emotion on there . None at all . Im much happier writing on here .

Clock this !

Can anyone tell me how or where I can adjust my blog post time , its all to cock ? !  Its annoyed me for years . We once had a tractor for 10 years and never did find out where the clock reset button was ...

Quote of the week

" Oh , modern music !  Its awful , its all aggressive black men shouting at you , coming out of the TV screen , and the white women , all they do is wiggle their bums because that's all their good at ! "  

Quote of the week is always from a person I know in real life .

A beautiful sight once again

This morning I saw a sight I haven't seen for a while . Two large Buzzards soaring round and round , climbing higher and higher in the sky . Sounds like some cheesey  TV film image , but it was beautiful . There was a boom in the buzzard population in the dale about 5 years ago and then they suddenly disappeared . Ive heard there are some local " numb nuts "  who shoot them illegally and probably poison them too . ( a Red Kite was found dead a while ago , the result of poisoning according to the RSPCA ) .Buzzards are scavengers so I don't know what threat they are meant to pose . Maybe some people resent  the fact these mighty birds soar so majestically and feel they must put them in their place . That's a strange idea but I really sense this maybe . Yes " small men who measure things " comes to mind !

Zone 1994

        

Back in the day I listened to old mix tapes of DJ Chris Baker but of course lost them when times moved onto Cd's but today thanks to You tube  ive found something fairly close to what once moved me so much . The more you listened to his music the more addictive it became . Long car journeys home late at night were heavan and getting home I would often sit in my car to finish listening to the mix . Of course this sounds pants on a lap top or phone so a proper stereo is needed . I had many peak experience moments listening to his mixes . It was the constant rhythm and slight tempo changes again and the changes of emotion up and down , then melancholy , then hyper again . Just like life really . Yes I can not overstate how much this DJ moved me .        

Questionable Canadians ? ( full moon approaching )

" At long last you don't have to be an optimist to call the glass half full ... "  Mark Carney  our super new Canadian Governor of the Bank of England no less !

Secondly : What the fudge is going on with the Mayor of Toronto ?  He is even on the  UK news ...

A bad day alright

Yes yesterday was a bad day by any standards . I should be filling out a Police Accident Form right now but firstly I want to write the days events on here . Yesterday we set off with a trailer full of sheep on a journey to Barnard Castle where we were taking them to stop for the winter . We met the man who owned the land they were going to and he led the way in his pick up truck as we followed behind .
   I had to drive much slower because of the weight we were towing . This meant I lost sight of him round a long blind bend , but quickly saw he was ahead  parked blocking my side of the road as he needed to get out to open a gate across the other side of the road . Seeing him I braked as hard as I could but due to the weight we were towing skidded a fair distance and came to a halt just touching his back bumper . Phew ! I thought , ive managed to avoid a bad accident there , but worse was to come . As i glanced out of my side window a car struck him as he crossed the road to open his the farm yard gate ,  and he was thrown onto the bonnet and then rolled off into the road . He slowly got up so I knew things weren't too bad . The driver which he ran in front of called the Police.and an ambulance .
  This type of incident shows you can never predict what others are going to do , even if you yourself avoid calamity's . Sometimes " shit happens "as they say . As I get older things like this surprise me less and less . Ive written before about lifes luck running out as you get older . I am constantly looking out for accidents before they happen recently . I feel a definite weariness which comes from getting older and realising your best is not good enough sometimes and that the horrific may never be far away at all .
   The man is OK by the way , just internal bruising . I say just , but had the approaching car been going faster things may have been more serious . Feeling rattled today as this is the second shock to my system as of late and the week has not yet ended .
   Driving home afterwards I noticed several close calls caused by drivers doing silly reckless overtaking manoeuvres around me . People seemed to be manic on the road . A full moon coming may be to blame or more likely the early dusk and short days we are now having . We all want to get things done before its dark .

And now for something completly different

Step one : Take one soiled potato and wash roughly . Chop into chips , not too thick or large . Use a sharp knife as a blunt one will cut you !  






Step Two :  Put a few knobs of butter ( no , not margarine , proper butter or you may as well give up now ) into a metal tray . Throw the chips into the tray and place in a hot oven , about 3/4 on full power for aprox 20 minutes





Step Three : Delicious natural chunky chips you eat as an extra snack while watching a good film that aren't deep fried in oil ( you can eat as many as you like without getting fat ) which becomes more important as life rolls on . Nice !

An inconvenient truth

" There are three sides to every story , yours , mine and the truth... "  

Ive decided on a compromise for my more personal posts . They will not be on long , a few days at the most. This is long enough for anyone who matters to see them and not long enough for gawpers and gossips...

A crappy day

Very tired today and not in the mood for writing much . I woke up too early this morning with a headache , sore gums and dry eyes . Its a dreary  November day with a constant fine drizzle in the air . While thumbling with the TV remote trying to find an episode of Peppa Pig for Evie I deleted the film Mulholland Drive by David Lynch . I had been looking forward to watching that film for several days .  A David Lynch film is exactly what I need considering how I feel today . Something odd and surreal that makes little logical sense will suit me down to the ground .

Hang,em high ?

I was wondering what to write about tonight , then I looked on face book and found someone I know well has shared a link of a photo of a mutilated puppy from some a source and the name of the man who is alleged to have carried out this vile act . This must stop ! Face book is becoming like the wild west . Peoples names and addresses are being made public . They may have committed nasty crimes but its not for us to incite revenge !!! Were not still living in the middle ages . This is 2013 . Im shocked and you know what this is only gonna get worse . Someone will get hurt . I am incredibly angry myself after seeing what this guy has done  , but get a grip you key board warriors , this is REAL life your playing with !

Cant think of a clever title for this

Yes , a blog can get quite outrageous at times . Of course we don't choose to fill it with mundane information about our lives or everyday stuff , we only post the more " interesting " parts and our most bizarre or unsettling experiences . Yes this could lead to a slightly colourful view of our character being formed by other readers . I think whats more important is we find some way forward for ourselves through our writing , because where else could we express our most important or bizarre views ?  How long would you have to wait in real life before you confided what you write in a blog to someone . It would never happen as things that we write about are not subjects that are casually or easily dropped into a quick " chat " To expose your views openly and an ominously is also in a funny way more private than expressing them " in real life "   A bizarre paradox . Nowadays everyone I know has a torrid part to their lives and nothing much makes me judge to harshly as im hardly the norm myself .

What David did next...

I sometimes wonder if we subconsciously manufacture circumstances in our lives to avoid an uncomfortable truth about ourselves we can not face . Maybe . I know that a crises can fully occupy your mind , but what happens after it passes ? A cold long hard look at your self with no distractions . Quickly you may form another lesser crisis  and search intently for the intensity of old anxiety patterns .  The fear , then the realisation things really are OK after all . This takes your mind off the everyday dull thud , thud of the days passing . Maybe...

The Poppy Girls - The Call (No Need To Say Goodbye)

http://www.youtube.com/v/WUlvdzf1FNc?autohide=1&version=3&autohide=1&autoplay=1&feature=share&attribution_tag=Coof9EroedBgVRRkUFs5-Q&showinfo=1

Last year we had the " Military Wives Choir " . A group of serviceman's wives who recorded a song to promote the army no less and draw awareness to what exactly im still not sure . I gave my views on that quite plainly last year too . But this years effort has really sunk low , really low . How this group of innocent girls have been used as a PR tool by their own parents to promote the bloody , immoral and fucking horrendous act of war staggers me . Yes the soldiers are very brave , yes we are grateful , but this song is nothing to do with war . Its aimed at dense X-Factor audience types who live in rough council estates  ( the same type who want to hang people for unfashionable crimes ) and go teary eyed they will . This is a very good example of what I heard described recently as our touchy , feely morally vicious world . Yes this is aimed at the type of person who reads The Daily Mirror . When you look back to the mind games they used to promote joining the army in the World Wars you can see we haven't come far really have we despite our " modern " educated society . For my final parting shot may I suggest if you have children WTF are you doing in the army ???  A recklessness of gigantic proportions...  Papering over the reality of war with scenes that display family love is a crime . It makes me sick . Its a trick we would expect from a tyrant or Korea . These are dangerous times when to oppose war puts you in collision with family bonds displayed in this video . Someone is very clever behind this and VERY  dangerous . Be warned !!!

Bang , bang , bang , bang , bang , bang , bang , bang , boom !

I have just got back from Dent bonfire . A family bonfire ?  Well judging by the almighty fucking racket of fire works that were more reminiscent of a battle field in Afghanistan you may think otherwise . Yes they always are noisy , but nowadays a bang must accompany EVERY flash . Its reached over kill and all you get is a constant banging punctuated with a boom . Its a none stop barrage of noise  , a bloody annoyance . So how are toddlers meant to cope ? Its a typical modern overkill . Too obvious , too loud ,  too desperate ? I really must be getting older..
 

Quote of the week

 "  Your husband was not what I expected... "    

Suddenly

" Once again Winter had arrived early , galvanising his new found reality's... "     

Sunday

Well today's plans have been thrown into chaos . Ive had this feeling before . Quite annoyed as I have an urgent situation to attend too , and finally I having built up some momentum to proceed ,  once again  ( this time not self inflicted ) my plans have been quashed . Usually this is just life re-aligning to a better set of circumstances for success in the future . Not all set backs are negative , as ive learnt .
   Its a cold Sunday today with torrential ( is there any other type nowadays ) rain showers . Its a day to stop inside as long as possible . My brother in law is visiting and has gone on a long up hill bike ride with my sister this morning . Madness ! People who do non manual jobs just cant wait to exhaust them selves ,mean while those who do those jobs spend time with a lap top to relax . Whatever is the opposite to your everyday routine seems to be the goal ! lol
  I was reading of someone who was upset at a family members suddenly perilous health situation and I am reminded of a shock I also learnt of this week regarding an Uncle who due to health problems has no form of income and is experiencing a severe crises on all fronts due to this  . He is as many will know a family legend in his views , solitary lifestyle ect , ect . I only went on holiday with him a few months ago  , and how fast a crises can engulf someone , though I feel many always new this day would come but that doesn't take away the shock of its reality . Losing your independence , transport and income and health all in a short space of time must be shocking for him , and us to witness as well . He is not going to be the man we once knew again although I have seen people bounce back . Lets all hope so....
   I think everyone enjoyed our family bonfire last night . We were very lucky as a lull in the wind and rain mysteriously for a couple of hours made the night do able . What are the odds of the Aga playing up just as my mother had food for about twenty people to cook ? It had only being serviced a few weeks ago ? Bizarre ! The thunder and lightening before we light the fire wasn't typical neither !  Anyway we had great intense fire despite a days rain due to some " additional " items added ! I just wish my daughter Evie had been able to watch , but she was too tired and the weather wasn't exactly ideal . Never mind .

A fast moving front...

Every know and again a very brief spell occurs in TV advertising where a new brand of risky humour breaks out as if suddenly liberated from years of repression , and then as quickly as it comes , its gone again leaving me disappointed as all returns to the old  normal formula of creating desire via my TV screen . Its a brief flash of the new breaking out , but its destroyed so fast , but next time it happens maybe the " squares " wont get their way !!!